Time is on my Side

I always pictured myself having a big house with an indoor pool and surround speakers solely for floating and listening to this song while gazing up at the sky. My indoor pool has a glass ceiling, ok?



Sigh.

In the meantime, we are finally all settled into our house, except for hanging anything on the walls. Whatever genius built this house decided that it was a good idea to have all the walls made of concrete/plaster. Granted, it was built in 1949. You'd think that it would be an excellent idea to prevent sound from going from room to room but then they put hardwood floors throughout so I'm basically living inside a snare drum. I can literally hear a key when it is slid into the front door.  [insert Dane Cook's bit about cheating here]

This neighborhood is one that I never imagined I'd be able to afford to live in. I'm close to the freeway, South Congress, downtown Austin, basically anywhere you'd want to be. The houses in this neighborhood are A-Maze-Ing. I went running last week and literally got lost because I was too busy looking at all the awesome houses instead of paying attention to where I was going. I'm dying for any time anybody asks where we live. I can't wait to casually blurt out Travis Heights. Yeah, pinkies up.

Something about this house makes me feel like I live in California. I think it might be the 1950's feel of it. Could be the giant cactus growing in the front yard. I haven't quite decided but I can say that it has made me love living here even more. I've always, always, always wanted to live in California and I'm a bit pissed off at myself for never doing it.

More and more SLC peeps are moving here, however, and it's making the place feel a bit more like home. I love being able to have that common denominator with people and still be able to be sort of a tour guide and have that "in" here in Austin. I've told a few people that I'm wanting to move back this year so now of course, I have everybody asking if it's true. I'm a little bit on the fence to be honest. I've made a life for myself here and a life that I actually love. I miss my friends and some of my family dearly but we can all commute to see one another, can't we? Before my heart was 70% SLC and 30% Austin but as more time goes by, more of that percentage is being given to Austin. I'd say we are almost to the 50/50 mark. Who knows....a few more months and maybe we'll be 70% Austin and 30% SLC. Time will only tell.

Muck Foving

I swear, I can't go a full year without moving at least once. I sort of feel restless if I don't. Hell, I sold my house after only living there for something like 15 months. We are moving this weekend and it's kind of bittersweet. I hate the actual act of moving but moving into almost 4 times the space we've been living in will make it all worth it. Boyf and I have been living in my 376 square foot apartment and it has definitely taken it's toll, especially since I also work here. We are going from 376 square foot studio apartment to a 1200 square foot house. I can totally see myself just wandering aimlessly throughout the house in complete shock for the first few hours of moving in. Maybe I'll run laps from the kitchen through the dining room to living room. Who knows.

There are stacks of boxes and furniture in every single corner of this place. It's literally something out of an episode of Hoarders, minus the 1,743 cats/cat carcasses. I feel so claustrophobic that I try and keep the front door open just to let some light in and bring some space from outside in. (Except that it's raining gatos y perros out there today) Three more days. I can do this.

In the meantime, I've been serenading myself all morning/afternoon to this jem I didn't even know existed until I found it on Spotify:

Can't....stop....watching.

Well, mostly can't stop listening since I'm usually working while listening but you get it. This is amaze balls. I'm totally addicted.

Scenes from my life

Actual conversation between me and boyfriend:

Me: Baby, can I make you an egg nog?

Boyfriend: Mmmmm....no, I think I'm ok. Thank you though.

Me: Are you sure? Maybe just a small one?

Boyfriend: Nah.

Me: Just a small one. It won't be that big.

Boyfriend: It's ok.

Me: Are you sure?

**pause**

Boyfriend: Ok, sure.

Me: Are you sure? You don't have to have one if you don't want one.

**Complete awkward silence** (Also, I haven't been able to put into words the look he gave me)

You guys, girls are crazy. Bat shit, Congress-bridge-filled-with-bat-shit crazy. Why did I just talk him into an eggnog and then try and talk him out of one? I don't even get me.

CUT TO COMMERCIAL!!!

Can we talk about how many commercials have caught me by the ear in this last little bit? Whoever is in advertising right now is a serious music fan because I'm LOVING the things I'm hearing. Do you recognize these songs?

Kardashian Kraziness

First of all, let's talk about how annoying that title is. Second, let's talk about how annoying my addiction to trashy TV is. In my defense, even boyfriend has been caught up in this fuckery we call the Kardashian family. We find ourselves watching their 18 shows on E! and commenting on what assholes they are and then reality sets in and we find ourselves questioning who we are as people for finding enjoyment in the show in the first place.

This week, I learned how to fishtail braid my hair AND went to Sears and secretly checked out the Kardashian Kollection. I'm such a Kardashian now.....except for the whole being a millionaire for doing nothing and effing ball players all the days.

Basically the only thing that makes me a Kardashian is the fishtail thing. So....I guess that doesn't really qualify as anything. Still. I'm pretty stoked on my skills.

Next up is finding the cahones to pull off that hot pink or bright red lipstick. Hhhhhhh.

I'm Just Sayin' That You Could Do Bettah.

Is it me or does this song sound a little like the Peter Gabriel song featured on the City of Angels soundtrack? Oh yeah, I haven't heard it either....ehem. No but for real. It reminds me of that song. You guys! I'm obsessed with this CD!! I don't know that I've ever mentioned this before but I have THE most awesome sister in the entire world. She sent me this album yesterday and I can't stop listening! I stay logged on at work just so I can listen to this song. (Holla for overtime!) Boyf is a hater of Drake because of his Sprite commercial so I've been sparing him but I don't know how long I'll be that nice. I'm sure if he listened to it he'd be as much in love with it.

I've actually learned quite a bit about boyfriend these past two weeks. I've known him for over a year but am still learning things about him. He enjoys window shopping! Do you know how huge that is for me? He likes looking at furniture! It's amazing and I love it. Tonight he just admitted that he likes Rihanna. I've been hiding my passion for Rihanna but now I'm FREE!! I haven't been able to stop listening to "We Found Love" for the last two weeks. I turn into this guy whenever it's on, no joke:

I have a weird question. I'm not expecting an answer. I think I might just need to say it out loud. (Or type it because I don't actually speak while blogging. Maybe I should?) Do you think you've escaped the past? Are you fully content with everything that has come and gone? Is it weird that I'm not or is it a normal thing to have these feelings? Maybe it's just Christmas time and I'm getting too sentimental. It's just that sometimes I can let my mind wander into the 'what ifs' of my life and I really don't appreciate it.

Don't get me wrong. I know that everything that I've experienced and gone through up until this point has got me to where I am. I am so happy to be able to say that I live in Austin. I've stepped out of any comfort zone I could ever even imagine that I had and tried something new and made a new life for myself. I've made friends and I've made enemies. Had things "worked out" I would probably be a fatty living in Price, UT with 5 kids. Or dealing with a bipolar baby momma with all sorts of drama. Or maybe in some other tiny ass town living a life that isn't me. It's just that sometimes I wonder if the life I'm living now is where I should be. 

Do y'all have these feelings ever?